no shame november

I’m a 17 year old guy. This is important. Why? Because I’m not a virgin. And this kind of, well REALLY, sucks. You’re probably thinking something like “well, dude, you got LAID, man!” Yea, not the case. The problem is, it was with the wrong person. The only saving grace is I can’t really remember it. We had sex 4 times and I only really remember the rooms. A storage room, her room, my friend’s room, a shower. I guess it’s not a huge deal anymore, but it’s probably the single biggest life lesson I’ve ever learned, and I have told absolutely no one about this fear. A few friends know that we had sex, but these repercussions only exist in my head. I just gave it all up too soon. She was not the right person for me, and it’s forever felt like I let this person have a part of me, then they crumpled it up like paper, and handed it back. I’ve unfolded it and put it back since then, but the creases are still there. I’ve now met an amazing girl that I swear to God I’m going to marry one day, and I know I want to wait with her. Maybe this No Shame November project has inspired me to tell her all this, so that we can be prepared, and she can know a little more how much she means to me. I want to wait with her, because I want everything to be right. Not perfect, but right.

(anonymous)